Rainy Day Photographer Blues

I'm sitting in my third-floor attic office, watching sheets of rain fall from the sky and slowly letting go of the idea that I will be out shooting today. It's been three days. I have the itch. My new DSLR rests in its battered London Fog case, like leaden weight on my office floor. 

Photography is not something you can turn on and off, at least not once you have committed yourself to it. I see in 85mm these days with the focus on the foreground. Everything else is just a blur. In the words of Vanessa Jackman," I take a thousand photographs every day - some in my head, some with my camera." The ones in my head are fine, but they don't live up to the real thing.